Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Things of Land and Sea are We

Kooky Mermaid w Purple Hair and Sea Family. By mama

This is one of the things I've been working on this month. A mermaid doll, not a pretty mermaid doll, a funny mermaid doll. And the little dolphin pet. And the finger puppet octopus and jellyfish. I am particularly proud of the jellyfish inspiration. A little tulle, a little beaded trim, and voila.

Here's Ivy playing "hello there would you like to dance" with the invertebrates.

Sometimes I've been feeling a little like I was under the ocean with all the things I've had to do lately. But without the fins and gills and tentacles and such.

I've decided that my new year is going to be....

well... let me stop.

I haven't decided anything, except I am going to keep trying to do what I've been trying to do. I'm going to take the next steps and see where they lead me.

I'm going to revise my just finished first draft of my Werewolf Novel. (Just this morning! Yay!)
I'm going to find some critical readers.
I'm going to find out how to get an agent.
I'm going to try to get this puppy published. This is the one, I think. After all of the "ones" I've had before.
I'm also going to keep going with my art. Work on my etsy shop, which is taking a necessary break right now.
I'm going to try to paint bigger, if I can.
I'm going to work on some new creativity projects still to be defined.

But along with those goals I have, I'm going to work on adjusting expectations. Accepting what is. Enjoying life as it comes. Keeping motivated and productive. Being open to opportunity. Being realistic about what I can accomplish with my time.

I've come a long way this year, but it's not as far as I was hoping. The truth is that as a full time stay at home mom with a 4 year old and an almost 3 year old, I don't really have the time or energy to do all I want creatively or in a business.

That was an important realization to make. Life comes first, you see. Even if creativity feeds my life, I still have to take care of the physicality of life, the needs of little people, cleaning the house, cooking, laundry, eating right, maintaining relationships. All that stuff of living.

I have a tendency to live in my head, to dream up ideas, to paint and write and focus on all that.

Now as a mother, I am learning this balance.

A thing of land and sea I am. A mermaid in life. Half mom and half artist. Half woman, half fish.

I am still learning to navigate this strange environment.

But there is no deadline to living. Every day is a new chance to grow, learn, change, retreat.

January first is a great day to take stock and review and envision the year to come, but it is still just one day in life. And every single day is the first day, as they say, of the rest of your life.

What do you want to achieve in this next year? What are you willing to let go of?


Marisa @ Getting Back To Basics said...

I love the mermaid!!!
Those are great goals...

Anonymous said...

As I Libra I love balance. I search for it. I strive for it. One of these days...

Mermaids are awesome.

KrisP said...

Eloquently said Rowena! It is quite a balance being a mother and an artist. Most days I just throw myself into the play dough with my almost 4 year old and I can be both.

Mariellen said...

Hi Rowena

Happy New Year! Please excuse me for my rude nes sin not replying to your post on my blog, now many months ago. I have only just seen it; its been a very difficult year of many life changing events, some still taking place.
I love your balance aim and I have no doubt that your acceptance of doing what you can do will help - it is a goal of mine also. One i have to work hard at, but a very good goal.

I wish you safe and happy times in snow filled Michigan, how lovely.

Best wishes for 2010 - and thank you again for posting: I thought i was talking to myself. :-))

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