Orange Butterfly in a Terrarium, or Fly
82/100 in 100 creative challenge, 8/20/09
Golden Fluid Acrylic on paper, 5x8"
I took yesterday off. Yes. I feel good about it. I did it on purpose.
This is what they mean when they talk about making peace with your life as it is. I could easily have kicked myself in the rear all day long, thinking about how I should post, how I needed to post, how I really OUGHT to post, and then not posting. Or even if I did post, think about all the misery as I browbeat myself into submission all day.
The truth is, I've been posting double pictures, I am doing fine on my 100 in 100 days challenge, I'm even a little ahead. I don't NEED to post every day. I am not bad because I skip a post every few days. But even if I don't need to, I often keep in the back of my mind all the things I should be doing if I were great, better, best, perfect.
Here I am, imperfect, in my imperfect life. And I'm just trying to keep on going and be productive and care for my kids and paint and (er) write (er) and you know, enjoy my life. Well, the hardest thing (aside from writing) has proved to be enjoying my life.
Maybe that's why I'm painting these kid directed paintings of flowers and animals. Because these aren't about concepts, they just are. Just what we look out and see in the garden or on a PBS show or just what we like in that minute. I'm just looking to bloom where I am planted, even if I am imperfect.
Plus, this butterfly, I like to think she's just come out of her cocoon that has been inside this cozy, small terrarium. I like to think this butterfly, she's about to take off and live her brief, brilliant life to the fullest.
Transformation, you see.