acrylic and pencil on paper, 8.5"x5"
Where I am is overwhelmed.
Frankly, I am trying to fit 36 hours into the 24 we have. And it just doesn't work.
Then I get overwhelmed and anxious and then I just can't get anything done. It's one of the things that makes waiting tables a good fit for me... because I just go in there, do my job in the moment, even if the moment is stressful, there is only ever what needs to be done right then. It's very zen.
When I get home, I start thinking about all the needs and shoulds, the future and the past, the fears and the desires, and I get derailed feeling like I can't do it all, so I end up just doing nothing.
So yesterday I painted myself this remembering. (Did I just make up a word? Remembering? It's something to get me remembering the long view.)
Small things with great love. Inspired by the Mother Theresa quote, "We can do no great things, only small things with great love."
We CAN'T do it all. We CAN'T do these HUGE things when we are these small people... except we can, when we just tackle it one little thing at a time. One little love-ful thing at a time.
Don't worry about the grand outcome the huge dreams the perfection of intention. Just do what is there right in front of you. This sketch. This dinner. This moment of connection. This thing on your to do list.
And then we find it all gets done.
Or if it doesn't, we get by anyway.