I haven’t written in so long. I am so out of it. Out of practice. Out of the mindset. Out of the story. Out of focus.
I am so lazy right now. My energy is drained. My time is occupied. I am FULL of excuses, though.
Just saw the writer Jennifer Egan on a talk show, talking about writing and how she never knows where her story is going. She lives in Brooklyn and has two kids. Makes me want to write again. Makes me want to be a writer again.
I am afraid to start all over again. Not “start all over again,” because I still have my ideas and my first chapter, but I am afraid to START—again.
Time to battle the demons. Time to commit to action. Time to pick up the sword (pen, keyboard, whatever) and attack.
Time to stop talking about.
I promise, after I post this, I will open up my novel file and just start writing—even typing at this point is acceptable—just to get the words flowing.